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Friday, June 11, 2010 @ 12:49 PM

when they are away for 2 weeks

parents have been away for 8 days already..
and i already feel the loss at home..
whenever i went out..
whenever i'm alone at home..
even whenever i'm asleep..

as a daughter, i, myself, already know that 'enjoying' and going out when they were away does not mean freedom..but just for a 'time-out' for me as a student and as a teenager..

i'm a bit pissed off with the situation at home..
everything is all about the kids
like totally!!
i'm not complaining of babysitting them, but.........sigh.
i'm okay taking care of them if they obey and respect me as their aunt..
but!
they NEVER respect me, NEVER listen to me, NEVER NEVER NEVER!!!
BUT WHY?

i remembered.
at one point of time, i cried in front of my laptop, listening to Untukmu Ibu by Exists.
dont ask me.
at that point of time, i had to be alone taking care of the kids..
and at that point of time, i covered my ears upon hearing one argument after another made by the little devils(kids)..
i let out a huge sigh.
i never did that.
its been so long i let out that huge sigh.
and wiping the tears that kept tearing down..

consequences:
if i try to solve the kids' arguments, i tend to beat them.
if i try to be patient with their rudeness, i could get emo and depressed and all i can do is always CRY!
if i told my sisters about this, they would say "they're kids, they're still small kids!" *roll eyes*
if
if
if
if

if only i can kill people, i will kill..

arghhhh!!!

oh god,
friday, 1.03pm
i cried again.

profile: reach my prismic soul

Noor Azah
Screen name as Hatreziee

Turn One-Eight on 28 January
Someone who LOVES to enjoy every minutes of freedom when she has the opportunity

Music-Lover but more HEAD-BANGED to Avenged Sevenfold, Killswitch Engange, Disturbed and Korpiklaani
Jerks, Backstabbers, People controlling her freedom and Liars are the most top HATERS.
Black, Design and Friends are LOVED.

Can be a Slacker
Friendly, Understanding and Caring person
but a Sensitive and Temperamental at times

wishlist: Unconditional Desires

Excellence in Studies
The Perfect Guy
Watch MORE Movies
Freedom
MORE $$$$
More Tops
Try on cute GREY and Black Dresses

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