Out of ANGER, SADNESS or DAILY HAPPENINGS
My BLOG, My SAY.
Out of ANGER, SADNESS or DAILY HAPPENINGS
My BLOG, My SAY.
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Monday, July 27, 2009 @ 8:54 AM
 ok like i am still wondering. why do people break up and patch up. if they have problems, they might as well settle it and move on through the relationship why must there be a process of breaking up? weird people. another thing. living in a single life is also not that easy. i felt weird every time. i am just scared to get committed now. not that i dont trust guys. cos' i noe its not fair for those faithful and good guys out there. but i still fear there might be jerks and hypocrite out there, faking themselves just to get the girl they want. for a second, i hate myself being a girl. |
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Saturday, July 25, 2009 @ 9:21 PM
Just an FYI.
 everything just FINALLY revealed last thursday. omg, like at last, i heard one final pure truth from him. Thank you for finally making out the 'tough' decision. |
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@ 12:30 PM
DAMN! Azah slack AGAIN??
 yup, u can tell through the title. slack again... -.- yesterday was programming. and yes, every friday programming lesson is a half-day! classmates planning on where are they heading to.. some planned on movies.. some planned on meeting gfs/bfs yup, almost everyone planned, including me. but for me, ive already planned about it since last week (i think) ahah.. decided to meet yat then. well, its like a must for me to update him, yknow! HAHA! well, i told him to fetch me from woodlands, yeap, tell me about it, im a draggy when it comes to long journeys..lalala~~ so i got outta skol around 12 and he didn't text me still.. so i went to civic library first while waiting for him to arrive. oh wow, surprisingly, its ald like 1215 and he told me he just woke up..?? and he needs to go for friday prayers. so i told him i wanna go eat first. was about to enter LJS, when he texted not to go for lunch first. -.- so i took the train to eunos. what that concerns me now is my ezlink. damnit! i gotta keep topping up this damn card! met him at bustop near his place. chatted for a while and we went to the uncle's house. well, at least something to kill my slacking time.haha. told my mum that i'll be back around 7 plus. well, hindi songs just kept me too entertained that i didnt realised that its already 8 plus! god damnit. so i told my mum that i'll be back around 10 plus, as usual as my IG time. overall, precious time was well-spent there. ahah. at least it killed my boredom too. hehe. so i chao around 9. took the cab with yat and he dropped me at eunos inter. thanks yawww... and dangs..i was damn sleepy. did my evaluation and then continue my usual routine - facebooking! lalalala~~~ and yeah..ive then decided that friday is now officially booked with my precious slacking time!! |
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Wednesday, July 22, 2009 @ 10:26 AM
slack and earn 10 Bucks!
 ok so i skipped class today. so i'm like spending almost 3 hours in Mcdonalds. doing what? well i'm just on my laptop, gathering those updates. reason i skipped school was because i'm meeting my long lost friend. well, this is the only day that this person will be free, i think. i decided not to come for lessons but instead going for my IG. i brought my usual school stuffs - laptop accesorries and girl's stuffs. i brought my straps and drumsticks too, for my IG of course. i told Saiha that i'll meet her at w1 at 4 plus to go together for IG. and fuck! she said that the senior just texted her saying that there will be no practice today. argh! what now...??? she forwarded an email sent by the the IG chairperson. ok nice. he forwarded the email saying that training is cancelled and he just forwarded to some peeps only!!??? nice one la dude. getting pissed off with this IG already. so i decide to blog. i was typing on my notepad when suddenly theres a caucasion lady approached me, holding a camera in hand.she was with a friend i think. i was surprised plus shocked, thought that ive made a mistake to her or something. then suddenly she said "hey, are u using the Internet wireless? can i pay u to allow me to use the internet for a while??" i was like "erm erm...yea yea sure!" i was damn speechless about it mann... like this is the first time it happened to me. like someome gonna pay me just because i let her use the internet- cool or whattt....? so, if that's the case, i might as well stay in MacD waiting for people to to pay me to use the internet. Hahahaha... so she said that she wanna transfer photos and send it thtough the internet. i was kinda looking it from afar. surprisingly this lady took care and work at the CottoN On! i kinda gasped upon seeing that. so i asked "hey, do you actually work at Cotton On??" and she said yes. haha.. i told her i love shopping there, saying that i was even wearing a Cotton On shirt and carrying a Cotton On bag. OMG, LOL. i felt that i sounded kinda pathetic! :p and guess what? she actually gave me her contact details so that if I got enquiries or if i need any help for shopping.HAHA. it was a funny moment, haha. and yeah, she paid me 10 bucks.lalalala~~~ ok, enough said. i'm tired of typing now. and im happy today. i just earned 10 bucks!!! *wink wink* |
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@ 9:20 AM
pissed?
 ok darling, ive had enough of it. y was it damn difficult to admit everything? must you wait something to happen, then you wanna reveal everything? then that'll be too late dude. ok, everything was kinda settled yesterday night. and maybe something happened and dang! it just destroy everything! ok, like surprisingly, i am all emotion-less and feeling-less about it. ive been wanting this to happen. seriously, darling, i loved you too much till you suffer me deeply inside. and i dont think i can forgive you, EVER. gosh.. i am just wasting time. GOD, please introduce to me to someone who is really sincere to me and i mean VERY SINCERE. |
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Tuesday, July 21, 2009 @ 10:24 PM
Gay penguins hatch rejected egg
 Two homosexual penguins have successfully hatched an egg that was rejected by its parents and are now proudly rearing the chick, the German zoo housing the couple said on Wednesday. "Z and Vielpunkt, both males, gladly accepted their 'Easter present' and began straight away with hatching the egg," said the zoo in Bremerhaven, in northern Germany. "Since the chick arrived they are behaving in the same way as one would expect a heterosexual couple to do. Both happy fathers are now diligently handling the everyday care ... of their adopted offspring," the zoo said. Z and Vielpunkt are part of a six-strong gay community among the zoo's collection of endangered Humboldt penguins who rose to fame in 2005 when four Swedish females were brought in an unsuccessful attempt to "cure" them. "Homosexuality is nothing unusual among animals," the zoo said. "Sex and coupling up in our world do not necessarily have anything to do with reproduction." The Humboldt penguin is normally found on the coast of Chile and Peru, but numbers have dropped to between 12,000 and 20,000 as industrial fishing methods have led to dwindling stocks of the anchovies on which they feed. [http://news.sg.msn.com/oddities/article.aspx?cp-documentid=3355611] |
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Sunday, July 19, 2009 @ 3:34 PM
Reveal.
 this whole week had been tiring for me. not physically, but mentally. things just got revealed one by one. yes i know, I've known about it long time ago, but i've been keeping it inside my heart, not knowing that i'm actually suffering inside. everything just revealed on 16 july it all started with Facebook then to a conversation on MSN. then it ended with the conversation with him on the phone. but I just could not understand myself. I could not scold I could not blame I could not get frustrated for some reason while talking to him. why? although I know how fucked-up the situation is. I kept sighing while I was on the phone. I felt weird and it was dumb of him to get a new girl although he's already had a 'wife' for 1 year plus? yea, tell me about it. He told me to decide. but tell me, it was hard, dont know why. he said he want to start of anew with me. good to hear that. well, Adam, if you are reading this, i'm giving you the second chance I dont want the same damn thing happen again. and if it even happen, let it be coming from your mouth, rather then me getting shocking updates from some sources. i may seemed understanding, well yes, I am now. so don't waste this opportunity. even if you decide to patch back with her, please tell me now before everything prolongs. i understand it cos' you've been adapting her for so long compared to me. cos' if you really really love me, then take me with a full heart. not with a partial one and gave the other half to another girl. or if you really want to be with her, then leave me. please be honest this time. i dont want to suffer in your lies anymore. i dont want to be in a hanging relationship that is only filled with lust and affection. i want a sincere heart from you. |
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Tuesday, July 14, 2009 @ 5:58 PM
CIBAI
you know what?
i've been deadly faithful towards you but why? i thought everything's settled, but yet, why is it still the same...? i've not been lying of what i said to you. did you? i know you did. i know that it is DEAD hard for you to tell me in the eyes that you are faithful. but why the fuck must you do this? isn't this a waste of time??? FUCK OFF LA DUDE!! HOW MANY TIMES MUST I SAY THAT YOU ARE AN ASSHOLE??NEED I REPEAT IT ONE MORE TIME?? |
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Sunday, July 12, 2009 @ 9:20 PM
 ok i've been not updating for one whole week.. well yea, been busy doing and handling stuffs. just gonna keep this post short hopefully as i had already forgot what to write somehow. :p ohwells, school has been 'maddness!!' UT was last friday. told myself not to come school on that day and just planned to come for UT only. i was having my breakfast at lot 1 MacD. when suddenly my bitch gerl classmate, Angela ;) pm-ed me to come earlier. after thinking twice, i was like 'erm.............okayy.' haha so i reached there around 10 plus, for her sake (awwww......) surprisingly, i was kind of a BIT on track for programming..well, just a bit. but then now, im kinda forget all about it already. LOL. then, i went to do my RJ at woodlands library.. dint planned to actually, but, since, i'm kinda dragging myself to my religious classes, so i still go ahead with the plan. kinda rushed to religious class..so yea, tell me about it.lesson was short for me. cos i reached there around 8 plus and.......im kinda dozed off through the talkings...and POOF! lesson ended! HAHA. saturday.. went to Jurong Point with sister and her kids. kinda accompanied her to the career exhibition. i suggested her to watch Transformers there since her kids had been wanting to watch it. and DAMN! tickets were 10 bucks! accumulated that she gonna pay will be 50 bucks marn...tell me bout it, it was a weekend -.- so she decided to treat her kids to the Kiddy Palace! yeah baybeh! TOYYSS....! HEHEHE.. ;) ate at MacD and damn! am i gonna be fat or whatt..... i ate McSpicy PLUS 3 packet FRIES PLUS WHOLE of Cinnamon Melts. sigh.. bought a new bag for 10 bucks since my old bag was torn for some fucking reason. kinda small, but at least ive got my 'jalan-jalan' bag replaced. haha.  ok till here now, gotta study for my UT tomorrow..and it sucks cos its Enterprise-world of POA! zzz... |
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Tuesday, July 07, 2009 @ 2:44 AM
Love pollution.
 When sometimes you need someone who care for you.. Pamper you.. Make you special in any way.. Does not make you feel controlled.. Give the special attention that no one could give.. Most importantly, when sometimes you need someone whom you could give your heart to.. When you finally realised that he is not the perfect one for you, would you turned this person down and continue searching? Or would you try your very best to change him and make the best of him? Or would you continue to suffer despite the pain that you went through? Do you ever think of turning back the time? Or do you ever think of fast forwarding to the future? Or just sit in a corner and wait for everything to pass by? Why would people cry when they know that crying is just plainly tears and it will never heal a single thing? Do tears help you to get back to your beloved ex-boyfriend that you had never forget until now? Do tears help you to pass those subjects that you failed real badly? Do tears solve critics? Why do people still want to be engaged in a relationship when they know that their relationship will not last long? Why must they keep silent about it? Is it because it is hard to let their beloved go? Is it because they want to make their beloved feeling guilty , knowing that their beloved had betray the love? Isn’t all this a waste of time? Because sometimes you kept asking yourselves these questions but sometimes, they are all left unanswered, except for some. But if they know that these questions are usually left unanswered, why would they still ask? Why would they still be in doubts? I wonder.. Love. Lust. Affection. |
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Sunday, July 05, 2009 @ 9:33 PM
Seether - Careless Whisper
I feel so unsure
As I take your hand and lead you to the dance floor As the music dies, something in your eyes Calls to mind a silver screen and all those sad goodbyes I'm never gonna dance again Cause guilty feet have got no rhythm Though it's easy to pretend I know you're not a fool I should have known better than to cheat a friend And waste the chance that I'd been given So I'm never gonna dance again The way I danced with you Time can never mend The careless whispers of a good friend To the heart and mind Ignorance is kind And there's no comfort in the truth Pain is all you'll find I'm never gonna dance again Cause guilty feet have got no rhythm Though it's easy to pretend I know you're not a fool I should have known better than to cheat a friend And waste the chance that I'd been given So I'm never gonna dance again The way I danced with you Tonight the music seems so loud I wish that we could lose the crowd Maybe it's better this way We'd hurt each other with the things we want to say We could have been so good together We could have lived this dance forever But now who's gonna dance with me? Please stay I'm never gonna dance again Cause guilty feet have got no rhythm Though it's easy to pretend I know you're not a fool I should have known better than to cheat a friend And waste the chance that I'd been given So I'm never gonna dance again The way I danced with you |
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@ 9:25 PM
Double Trouble.
 experienced 2 different guys that is of the same true horoscope. ok. i know some peeps might be thinking "damn! azah and her horoscope...?" well..got this 'inspiration' after on the phone with an asshole. oh fuck. i met one with a good heart good looks good brain good in consoling...? - ok that has to improve. but another is the one with a confused heart good looks fucked up brain good in consoling ok..i am such a dumb ass bitch to reject the one who could give me a bright future. if not, i would not have come to this far, got myself into a serious mess and wasted for nothing. i should never regret. but what can i do..cos past can be haunting at times. and its so damn SHIT! i need someone or something to get my mind off it, FUCKKKK!!!!!! |
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@ 11:51 AM
Good gone Worse.
 school re-opened on Thursday. azah went to school.............NOT! dangs! i woke up as usual, around 6.... after bathed, waited for my mum to prepare breakfast..and i dozed off...zzz... i realised it was already 7.30 when i woke up!..and my mum was all prepared to go off.. i was like "damn! i'm late for school mann..! i checked whether mum had left my money allowance on the kitchen table.. sadly, no. then mum said "dont forget to take a look at the kids when they are back frm sch.." i was like "SHIT! SHE FORGOT THAT I GOT SCH TODAY." lol. haha.. texted natt and took advantage to continue on my beauty morning nap.lalalala.... yeap, tell me about it. getting lazy already liao. -.-  i online-ed around 12 plus and suddenly natt pm me to ask for a movie at CP. YAYNESS!!! like finally someone's free for a movie. so its an option between Transformers and Ice Age. decided for Transformers. but the funny thing was, we were super duper late!... so yea, u guessed it. we watched Ice Age.hahahaha.. well, the movie was damn cute.. ohwells, cant be home late on a thursday so i reached home around 8. :( ok, friday. guessed whether i came sch or not? Nahhhh.....hah... actually planned to come sch..for programing and to change password cos of damn expiry. BUT! i woke up late and my mum still forgets that i got school and i dont bother reminding her about it. -.- so i actually planned to come to school around 2 plus to change my password in school as i thought that we need to be in campus to change it. but i try changing it using the alternative, which is using the Microsoft Outlook. and surprisingly, it was a success and i can even log on to my whole system using the new password. i emailed the it-helpdesk about my doubt. they called me and phew! they said nothing happened..so no worries azah... and dangs! i forgot that i also got religious class on that day! OMFG. zzzz.... mum pestering me to go....like duh! oh marn... texted ain whether she goin anot. she invited me for a dinner with ana but i told them i'll meet up afterwards maybe.. planned to go with her ..met her and ana at Lot 1 Food Culture.. talk, gossip, chat... and theres this 'evil feeling' of not going..lalalala.... sooooo...................... in conclusion, Azah, Ana, Ain (3As)...went to chill around cck. chat, gossip, talk.....as usual...lalala... so yea..basically, ive been like 'cabuting' school and classes for this week. marn! what happened to me??!!! hmph.. aites.till here then i'm gonna update. no more inspirations already.lalala... and oh ya. 'thanks' to pritpal and theo for sending me those hindi songs. DAMN! :p |
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Friday, July 03, 2009 @ 10:01 PM
FUCK!
OMFG!
I HATE YOU ASSHOLE, JERK, FUCK ASS SON OF A BITCH!!! |
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Noor Azah
Screen name as Hatreziee
Turn One-Eight on 28 January
Someone who LOVES to enjoy every minutes of freedom when she has the opportunity
Music-Lover but more HEAD-BANGED to Avenged Sevenfold, Killswitch Engange, Disturbed and Korpiklaani
Jerks, Backstabbers, People controlling her freedom and Liars are the most top HATERS.
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