i've got 1 day left to start packing my stuffs for my STA camp at Republic Poly..

and god, i did not even realised that somehow, April really gets me busy ey...

i've got the STA CAMP on the 1st and 2nd April, AWARDS DAY at Regent Sec on the 3rd April, maybe GO OUT with my babes to buy stuffs during the weekends (4th April or 5th April), AND....SCHOOL STARTS on the 20th April!

and oops, i forgot. APRIL FOOLS DAY! muahahahaha....

ohwells, have to get myself prepared and ready for these days ahead yawww....

anddd....gotta keep this post short and 'sweet' and shall end with a BELATED BIRTHDAY WISH to my 'kepo' nephew, DAANISH AL-HAQQ...

<<< He's the one with the 'rocker sign')

Fuck!

i dont know whether i shud be angry or not.

well, i understand she has to workl, get the money, pay her debts, pay her fines or stuck in jail...blablabla....

but cant she have time with her kids during weekends? plus plus her son's birthday is this Sunday!

yea rite! she told she will end her work at 3pm..and NOW, at llpm!?

Supposedly,i wanna meet my baybeh for a while to get some rokok..but now,,,,i will go NOWHERE!

yet she told me that if i wanna be alone, she will let the kids be at my neighbour's house upstairs..

FUCK! if i said yes, she would be thinking that i am one hell of a selfish BITCH! instead, i have to 'SACRIFICE' myself to rot in my shit house taking care of the kids!..

what an ASS...my other sis left to visit some sick person at Johore.,...

argh!!!!!!

and now i did not know what the hell to do with them...

and i'm fucking BORED!

fucking IRRITATED!

fucking.....SHIT!

im so tensed right now! i wanna go out!!!!!

I WANNA GET MY BUTT OUTTA HOUSE!

'better get the cigarettes'

Mum and dad are out for KL..

and i'm left at home with my niece and two of my nephews!

seriously, u guys can call me a NANNY! hurhur.. :(

sis left for work at 7+ with my niece sulking after got beaten by her mum (who is my sister, duh!) and both of my nephews who haven't woke up yet...

so, i have to try my best to try to get over my niece's mood and serve her breakfast..

so now im super bored...and somehow no one's free to go out...

argh!!!! i have to buy a new black skinny jeans lurh sey! cos my current one is super tight and i've too much fat' to ft in! :((

ohwells, till here then....

fyi, im super damn fucking bored today! get me out of the house pls!!!!!!! anyone?!?!

and another fyi, i rebond my hair again! and the person cut my dry hair till my hair length became short! grrr....

;)

so amacam?random tak baybeh? hah!

When mum is starting not to trust me, i just kept silent

well, i dont really care.

i dont wanna rebel (like i did last time) be

cause i dont want to create a bigger issue over a minor one.

although i could say that i may be able to control my anger, still, i have this anger kept in my heart.Sigh.

actually, i still dont understand.

Argh!!!!!!!!!!

My best friend gave me
The best advice
He said each day's a gift
And not a given right
Leave no stone unturned
Leave your fears behind
And try to take
The path less traveled by
That first step you take
Is the longest stride

If today was your last day
And tomorrow was too late
Could you say goodbye to yesterday?
Would you live each moment like your last?
Leave old pictures in the past
Donate every dime you have?
If today was your last day
If today was your last day

Against the grain
Should be a way of life
What's worth the prize
Is always worth the fight
Every second counts
'cause there's no second try,
So live like you'll
Never live it twice
Don't take the free ride
In your own life

If today was your last day
And tomorrow was too late
Could you say goodbye to yesterday?
Would you live each moment like your last?
Leave old pictures in the past
Donate every dime you have?
[ Nickelback Lyrics are found on www.songlyrics.com ]
Would you call old friends you never see?
Reminisce of memories
Would you forgive your enemies?
Would you find that one you're dreamin' of
Swear up and down to God above
That you finally fall in love
If today was your last day

If today was your last day...
Would you make your mark
By mending a broken heart?
You know it's never too late
To shoot for the stars,
Regardless of who you are
So do whatever it takes
'cause you can't rewind
A moment in this life
Let nothin' stand in your way
'cause the hands of time
Are never on your side

If today was your last day
And tomorrow was too late,
Could you say goodbye to yesterday?

Would you live each moment like your last?
Leave old pictures in the past
Donate every dime you have?
Would you call old friends you never see?
Reminisce of memories
Would you forgive your enemies?
Would you find that one you're dreamin' of
Swear up and down to God above
That you finally fall in love
If today was your last day

p.s. one emotional song that almost make me teary :(

gosh,i dun feel good about this.

I hope history will not repeat itself.

its impossible to change her because i have to change me, myself.

but i dont understand why must she rebel whereas she IS in the wrong and its for her own good?!

i dont understand why must she said that her mother like to pick on her although its just her negative thinking...

I'm damn confused...

i think i agree with Bayo(Hakim)... Life is ALWAYS a Nightmare!

Lalalala…

Yea yea I know I have not been updating for so long….who bothers anyway haha..

Date: 11 March 2009

Current mood: Quite happy but sad and confused (huh? Complicated..)

Current always-played songs:

RnB:

Shontelle ft Akon – Stuck With Each Other

David Archuleta – A Little Too Not Over You

Neyo – Mad

Hey Monday – Homecoming

Soulja Boy – Kiss Me Thru The Phone

Secondhand Serenade – Your Call

Rock:

Job For A Cowboy – Entombment Of A Machine

Avenged Sevenfold – Remenissions

Children Of Bodom – Children Of Decadence

Disturbed – Façade

Jinbara – Kita Kawan

The Cab – Bounce

Search – Gothik Malam Edan

Dragon Force – Fury Of The Storm

Birthdays: My Daddy! (090309), Sis Zella Azalea (100309), soon: Bro-in-law Sham Raini (140309)

Updates before this date: Mostly spend some precious time shopping with mummy ;)

Register for enrolment at Republic Polytechnic on 10 March 2009

Updates on this date: Collect my O Level certificate at Regent Secondary School

‘Suck’ on two sticks today after more than 1 month not ‘sucking’ it, haha.

Check my blood test at Polyclinic

Met those human beings whom I missed! <3

Updates that I have/am going to do sometime after this date:

Collect my blood test result

Wait for daddy’s friend to check on my lappie J

Get prepared for my Freshman Camp at Republic Poly

Try to reschedule my routine for free time to chill out with my beloved human beings

Buy some art stuffs (again!)

Have to go Bugis/Penin one day!!

Updates that I know that I don’t think that I could fulfill in life:

· Stop ‘sucking’ on those sticks (I will try to reduce the amount though)

· Moved on the previous relationship (because I will never forget him) L

· Not being emotional for 1 day!

· Stop cutting my wrist (depends)

· Not texting someone (somehow, I will always send blank messages to those ‘unlucky’ people, haha!)

Aites.. those are the latest updates that I am going to update in here in case I am not able to update for a long time again.