2008 had been a bitch. Situations happened one after another. Bad ones. It stinks when our loved ones getting apart from our life. Everybody had been talking shit. Acting shit. Just whatever thing that they do had been- Whatever shit!

But. 2008 had taught me enough:

2008 have made me realised that I have 2 groups of friends –fake and true ones.

2008 taught me to be cautious with my temper.

2008 taught me to let out my deep feelings to people.

2008 taught me to change to be a ‘good girl gone bad’

2008 taught me to be independent –as in being lost and getting my own self to be emotionally-distracted

2008 taught me to appreciate love although I don’t feel myself loved throughout.

2008 reminisced of an unforgettable ‘nice date’.

2008 let me learned to be cautious with everything that happened –because we don’t even know that the ‘decent-looking’ person and who always been smiling at me, is that someone that will backstab me to death.

2008 also make me realised that I cannot believed that the hug that I gave is the end of our love.

And 2008 made me think that I still have a loving family who can guide and support me throughout.

And 2008 made me think of the ups and downs and memories that I had with my lovely friends although I don’t really get to meet them throughout the loooong holiday.

Well... I am not a perfect person.

I’ve done mistakes too.

I’ve created sins to god too.

I’ve made someone heartbroken too.

I’ve hurt myself enough by doing things that I am not supposed to.

I’ve caused someone to be guilty for my stupid and lame reason.

I’ve created a devil in me...

Therefore, ongoing the year 2009, I decided to try to correct back my mistakes.

Try to be someone that everybody like.

Try to lock my negative feelings again.

So,

In this year 2009,

My resolutions are to:

Excel in my further studies

Improving my bad behaviour towards peers

Not getting too emotional

Be universal once in a while

Quit smoking

Not being a bitch to make a person guilty and heartbroken

Be more disciplined

Ohwells... I know it’s kinda late to be posting about this. I know I promised to post something proper, so this is it. Still, I don’t care if I had not been blogging or not. I’ve been feeling lazy to update though.

But, to tell you the truth, I am feeling nervous plus excited for 2009. I don’t know why but I feel that I don’t want to say goodbye to the past. Sigh. I decided not to put about guys or relationships in my resolution list. I don’t want to be too hopeful for the year ahead. I don’t want to plan for a relationship though. Let it be fated :)

*I really miss my friends. What a holiday we had... and u guys are so ‘hiatus’. Fuck.

**Damn you! Why the fuck you ask the question? I am feeling guilty since then. To miss or not to miss? To love or not to love? And now I’m teary again. Fuck!

[Sorry If There’s Any Sarcasm Created In This Post. Didn’t Mean To.]