When I thought that she had changed, I was wrong and I wanted to become the best for her.

When I thought that she had been more open-minded, I had accidentally took advantage of it and had never been giving the chance BUT I still want to become the best for her.

When I decided to repent, she will never realised and I still want to be the best for her.

When I created a sin or a mistake, she will always traced it and I got an extra curse BUT I know I still want to be the best for her.

I just wished that she will stumbled upon this blog and read this final post which I don’t even know when can I ever post it.

Though, she should have known it WAS a common thing. It’s part of growing up.

Tell me, what WAS the use of going to seminars and motivation talks when you still repeat the same thing, practising the same damn thing when you know it will never change a single thing.

Right now, I know I can’t rely on anybody anymore. This is because I know typical people will never understand. God knows.

Can I rewind the cycle of my life? Turning me back to a small innocent kid? Never wanting to grow up? Nah..

So, in this point of time, I usually type out my feelings and expressing out through posts.

Oh shit! I have to end this now because I sensed that I am starting to get teary! :p

Hah! And fyi, I had gotten myself addicted to those not-my-type-of-songs like;

Lady Gaga – Just Dance

Ida Maria – I Like You So Much Better When You're Naked

Katy Perry – I Kissed A Girl

Katy Perry – U’re So Gay

Hah! LOL.

-random pic taken from rp open house! heh...

K bye.