I’ve been wondering…

Why these things are happening to our friendship….

Why???

Well…things have changed…

We indeed are growing up..

But why must YOU changed?

Where is the old you???

Where??

I still remembered when you are trying to solve the misunderstanding between you and our friend..

You said that we should be honest….

You said that we should be open towards each other…

You said that we should confide each other when we have problems…

Where are all these promises?

I wanna be friends with everyone….

No backstabbing….

No talking behind the backs…

Now whos honest?

Who???

I miss you, my friend…

Instead, you should talk directly to us…

Confide to us….

Correct us when we’re wrong…

Ability to correct u when you are in the wrong….

If you wanna compete,

You can…

But why the wrong way?

Why the face?

Why the cry?

You can learn from the mistakes….

Compete with our friend is like killing her in a friendship battle…

Friend, I don’t know why the heck I have this tears rolling down my cheeks…

Maybe I’m just wondering why the heck you ask everyone EXCEPT me of all my bad habits that I did…

Because it wont solve a single thing, my dear friend..

I am really sorry if I had hurt you in any way,…

But I feel that you are hiding certain things from me….

Now whos being frank now?

Its not easy being the middle person..

After all these years…

As the time is nearing towards our O levels…

Why must this happen???

i wonder if it is a sin to start our revision earlier…

friend….please stop all this…

now...

I don’t even know how am I gonna survive in this situation…

I may look happy on the outside….

But inside…it hurts…

From now on….

I don’t wanna create a sin to you…

We may be friends but not that close, I think..

Oh yes, I knew…

All the while im labelled as the “admirer-snatcher”

But..

If you wanna blame me….so be it….

I don’t care…

Just so you know….

I miss the friendship…

The friendship that has no backstabbing….

No competing…

When theres love among friends…..

You and me

We used to be together

Every day together always

I really feel

Tha't I'm losing my best friend

I can't believe

This could be the end

It looks as though you're letting go

And if it's real,

Well I don't want to know

Don't speak

I know just what you're saying

So please stop explaining

Don't tell me 'cause it hurts

Don't speak

I know what you're thinking

I don't need your reasons

Don't tell me 'cause it hurts

Our memories

They can be inviting

But some are altogether

Mighty frightening

As we die, both you and I

With my head in my hands

I sit and cry

It's all ending

I gotta stop pretending who we are...

You and me

I can see us dying ... are we?

hey ppl...

i admit that its been a loooong time i dint post..well xcept fer the emo posts..

been kinda lazy and busy nowadays..

lots of assignments and painting that needs to be done...

needless to say, i can say im kinda stressed and u noe sometimes it makes me wanna do those stupid things again...

at least i got a taste of 'freedom' last fridaty night.

yeah baybeh! Cultural Nite rocks!

i can see girls looking so gorgeous and guys looking smart and hot...haha

i dint took a lot of pictures using my hp...but i will get more from my friends as they took their pics with their cameras..so maybe more to come but will NOT be posted here though...hah! lazy azah...

well....overall....the performance were great...xcept i was so hungry and poor khaleeda darling was sick...take care ya girl..

we actually planned a lot of things to do dat nite...but its ok then...we had fun aniwaes...

aites....i think dats all im gonna post...

will be back posting if theres hope fer my internet pc...hmph...

p.s. happy belated birthday to nessa nicole!stay sweet, girl!(:

aniwaes....just an fyi, i would to 'dedicate' this speech to someone...that is, if HE will read my blog.

"if you think that you are so damn good boy, if you think you are so pious, then, u shud have told ur mom that u smoked ot whatver shit that u have done during the past...da bagus aku tak taruk tattoo tau! dont underestimate those ppl la ok..if u wanna think dat im bad, then so be it!!!"

its difficult fer me to express it

its hard fer me to hide it

i'll try...

lets go our different ways...

i dun wanna bother...