*big knock on my head*

i failed a lot of subjects fer my MYE!!!!

k..i only passed my art which was like a C5 and malay..and its not surprising eventually..*BIG SIGH*

really, i need to buck up on ALL my subjects...

but then, it feels like i will still fail even though i studied like 1 mad cow...going to the library and all...blabla...

i felt that i cannot be focus i everything i do..

im damn fucking confused....

those people are catching up with me and getting to excel by getting higher marks than me..

moreover, nowadays, i felt as if something has been haunting me...and i was being too sensitive...i know u guys will never understand what the hell am i talking about..

but i cant explain the feelings...

or maybe i cant spit out those feelings in here...there may be a lot of witnesses who will be reading my blog and ended up talking back about what i wrote in here..and will be thinking that i am backstabbing or trying to be an emo shit again...bullshit la!

well, talk about today....

i was feeling very EMOtional ..

maybe because i kinda flung all my subjects..

then, i kinda feel like 1 stupid idiot as i was feeling very fucked up about someone..

and missing someone was also something thats killing me now...

dang! i was so tensed up fer MYE that i think that is why i failed most of the subjects..

therefore...i would like to make kinda a 'public apology' to my this few of my beloved friends...-i would like to apologize to u all cos i think i did something that i think will disappoint this few of my friends...maybe something that u guys would think that it is impossible fer me to do that..

im really sorry...dont ask me...just figure it out yourself...

haiz...im confused

screwed...

:( lets cry.......

salamz everyone!

im back updating...

well...MYE over..i have the mood to enjoy but WAIT! o levels not ended yet..

and theres so little time left..

today is my school's marking day..so no school!

but tomorrow is gonna be one hell of a nightmare fer me...im gonna be emo tomorrow

cos i will be getting my results tomorrow..

damn! i dint slack through all my subjects..i did study! (dont believe, ask eeda)

except fer my art la...i kinda work hard to pass those subjects that i always failed..

but then, im kinda disappointed with myself cos i have not been putting extra effort for my art.

i was too focusing on the o level art and other subjects....and it was my very ferst time not completing 29 drawings of prep work (sorry, mdm fazelah)

whereas, im supposed to concentrate more on my art being having the passion to go to an art course when entering poly when i graduate..haiz..

now, im confused...haiz..

okk heres my target fer MYE

MATH- C6

MALAY- B3

COMB.SCIENCE- C5

COMB.HUMANITIES- C5

ENGLISH- C5

POA- C5

ART- C5

woah....hopefully i can get over my targets...hmph..

okok..btw, back to happy mood...

justnow, i went out with girlfies, eeda qnd natt...

went to Jurong lib to 'study'...

we went to eat afterwards and we ended up chatting fer abt nearly half an hour..haha

then, sent natt to the bustop and saw the famous tiang guy..-dont wanna say the name..takut kecik hati pulak sebahagian pihak...haha..

then i went to Popular with eeda and bought foolscap and Bullet For My Valentine cd! yippee!!!

i was like buying fer the sake of 1 song that i like from the band...hehe...

then bought a belated mother's day gift fer my mum..

pics to be uploaded (i tink) hehe...

aites tink i better stop now...

and p.s.. bilat, tink if i wanna go out wit u, u better watch out my mood uh...EMO!! haha...

will be back after mid-year exam...

~~toodles!