Out of ANGER, SADNESS or DAILY HAPPENINGS
My BLOG, My SAY.
Out of ANGER, SADNESS or DAILY HAPPENINGS
My BLOG, My SAY.
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Saturday, January 26, 2008 @ 3:45 AM
Guilt and Fear (Turning 16)
if u guys think that this post is some kinda fake usual emo post, tell u, its not!
if u still think its not true and im just try acting emo, so be it.... and dont bother to read cos i dun need fucking ass throwing shits in my blog....out!  right now, have this mixed feelings over me... not knowing what and how to react.... ppl may think that im bad... a bad fren... a bad person... i felt so useless.... feel like hiding myself somewhere really far away from the ppl who know me.... no one will never understand... no one will wanna understand.. and i dont bother to make them understand.... keeping it to myself is good enough then letting it out to everyone... cos i noe...when i open up my gap, everything will be at worst... keeping it inside is torturous enough.... seems hard fer people to get it... but then... by keeping quiet just make me feel the guilts... fear that surrounds me all over... the fear and guilts that has been haunting me now... sometimes...thinking bout it.. i should NOT have this feelings... weird, strange feelings... .... well....im a bad person... a bad fren... i hate myself... looking myself in the mirror... how weak my hearts are... how rebellious and selfish i am... hating my reflections.. just the same as hating the whole me... pasts have taught me.... but naturally...it came back and make the whole me miserable more than ever... to the worst of all... im turning 16 on the 28 January.... getting old.... getting to the age which ppl say 'turning sweet 16'... sweet???? hah! these days.... these moments.... these situations just spoiled it.... SPOILED IT! THEY ruined it AGAIN! can u ppl pls stop hurting me!!! haiz..... Happy Birthday to me.... just so u know..i like u now... im sorry.... Death is the ending of life... But is not the ending of relationships... Im Moving On.... |
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Sunday, January 20, 2008 @ 6:46 PM
changes...
 so much changes happens...testing my patience...anger and temper... sick! watever it is.... collage attached of me, eda n natt who had went fer Ngee Ann Poly open house.. just an OK fer me.... cos Temasek had left such a big impact on me that makes my heart just wanting to go to that school... not because of the *ehem* ok?! lols.. welll.....overall, i can sat that NP offers a lot of courses that are very demanding and challenging... additionally, their cut-off point were so crazy... theres even a 9 fer the cutt-off point!!?? i was like 'wat?!'..haha well...need to consider about that... but, maybe i will either choose SP or TP fer my poly choice..hehe.. so, hey! noticed any different pic in the collage? hehe... my hair kinda weird huh?! cos i always tie up my hair NEATLY... hehe... REBONDING ALERT!!! yup.seemed that i cant get enough of rebonding huh?! endless....crazy hair.... sis azalea jgn jealous ok....(aku lame) aites..bb... |
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Monday, January 14, 2008 @ 4:19 PM
Restless.Tired.Sick.Stressed!!!
yo!
have not been updating my blog lately and replying those tags....haha... well....ive been busy nowadays.. with researchs.... brainstorming.... blablablabla.... i noe its common fer an O level student like me... but it seems that i cant balance my time between my rest and and the time fer me to do my revision.... and now..im left with a research regarding and english essay..brainstorming fer my art developments...and those endless school assignments....argh!!!!! well...ppl have been deciding to drop subjects...haiyo! haha... i wanna drop poa...but think twice...maybe i could pass poa with the help of my girlfies cos they are so pro at it..so help needed girls! haha  okok...enough fer all those stressful moments...lols last saturday, me, eda, nat and elly went to sp and tp open house...weee! actually dint plan to go to tp cos to us, its like deadly far! haha.. well...at last, we went (fer my 'bf' sake?).. attach a collage... well, me and elly really love tp..hehe...(fer some reason?) to me, sp is kinda common and dull..like other polys... fer tp, the ppl there were so sporting and fun..plus the place is very interesting and i love it! hehe...and aku pun sempat cuci mate tau..haha..(kan elly kan?! ) cute cute!! ohwells..guess i need to continue with my assignments...haiz (sigh....!) bb |
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Thursday, January 10, 2008 @ 5:18 PM
late updates...
gosh...im soooooo sorry fer the late updates fer my blog...
but the good thing is..ive been studying and doing my homework till late nights... cos now, ive been sleeping from 12am... well...ive got these panda eyes...duh! but...there are some good progress fer my studies..and i cud understand more about certain subjects since there are new teachers teaching...lols... ohwells...now i need to buck up my lit and poa...and since that now i am the POA rep....hmph.. bluek! but now i kinda understand from what my favourite poa teacher, Miss Natt had taught me..hehe lmfao... aites...kinda short post fer today...but at least i update! gtg... bye! (: |
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Thursday, January 03, 2008 @ 4:57 PM
i cant stand my emo!
why the heck im always too sensitive over a small situation....
why cant i joke ard with those old-aged ppl??!! im just being happy la... fine, maybe i am rude...but why the exaggerating scolding?! showing that 'fuck-off' face just make my own self really sucks... well, it seemed that i 'failed' one of my new year resolutions.. seemed that 2008 make me feel really unhappy, unlucky and MORE negative feelings...grrr..! well, currently reading a malay novel..wanna finish it asap actually... titled Biarkan Aku Menangis..by Norhayati Berahim more about marriage problems.... quite interesting la...i like the usage of bahasa inside it..(bobal bahasa plak aku ni) aites...gtg now b4 the internet goes insane... (: |
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Tuesday, January 01, 2008 @ 4:28 PM
Happy New Year!!
Happy New Year everyone!!!
Welcome 2008!!!! My MAIN New Year Resolutions...... *To pass my O level real GOOD *reduce my hp bills *study xtra hard..and NO slacking around *quit my bad habits (until after my o level?!..hehe) *try not to be too emo when having problems... dats all!hehe.. hopefully i can accomplish my resolutions..... to evryone....wishing all the best in everything u do! (: |
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Noor Azah
Screen name as Hatreziee
Turn One-Eight on 28 January
Someone who LOVES to enjoy every minutes of freedom when she has the opportunity
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Jerks, Backstabbers, People controlling her freedom and Liars are the most top HATERS.
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